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How Deep
is Deep

A 53-card deck of questions designed to break the surface, and find what's beneath it.

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53 Cards
13 Themes
1 Hidden
The Origin

I was sleeping in a bus when I started writing these questions.

I'd quit my job. I'd stopped working for four months. I'd given up almost everything I owned. Not because I had to, but because the awakening I was going through was asking me to.

I was living in a 1990s Iveco bus parked in a backyard in Perth, with a dreamcatcher hanging in the windshield and an extension cord running through the door. No income. No plan. Just a deeper question pulling me through every day.

Every morning I woke up and asked myself the same thing: what is my purpose of being here? Not as a thought experiment. As something I genuinely needed to answer. There was nowhere else to put the question. Nothing to distract me from it.

And then one night, I went to a friend's party.

Everyone was talking about the same things they always talk about. The weather, the weekend, who said what to whom. And I sat there, half-present, knowing I was going home to a bus, and thought: none of them know what I'm going through. And nobody is asking.

It wasn't their fault. They didn't have the language. I didn't have the language either. We didn't have the questions.

Why do we only ever discuss the surface? Why don't we talk about consciousness, about the soul, about what we actually came here to figure out?

And then another voice, clearer than my own, said: why don't you make it, then?

I went back to the bus that night and started writing. The questions I wished someone would ask me. The questions I needed to ask myself. The ones that meet you where you actually are, not where you're pretending to be.

That's how this deck was made. Not in a studio. Not by a team. By one person, in a bus, in the middle of giving everything up, and finding, in the process, what was actually worth holding onto.

Premdas
The 1990s Iveco bus where the deck was written, parked in a Perth backyard
The bus · Perth, 2023

Where the first questions were written.

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53 Cards
13 Themes
2yr In the Making
1 Hidden Section
The Map

13 sections. 12 you can see. One you can't.

Each section holds four questions, each card paired with original artwork designed to set the tone before a word is spoken.

Belief System01
Personal Growth02
Spirituality03
Consciousness04
Inner Peace05
Relationships06
Purpose07
Existential08
Soul09
Matrix10
Trauma11
Sexuality12

The thirteenth section reveals itself to those who go far enough into the deck.

Three Cards from the Deck

Questions that actually ask something.

Soul

What are your beliefs about the existence of the soul and its nature? How do these beliefs influence your understanding of life's purpose and the journey beyond death?

No. 27
Matrix

If you discovered you were living in a simulated reality, how would that knowledge influence your pursuit of truth, freedom, and self-discovery?

No. 34
Inner Peace

How do you approach the exploration of your shadow self, the aspects of yourself you may struggle to accept, and how does this contribute to your inner peace?

No. 18
Behind the Design

Sketched, measured, and made by hand.

Every box dimension. Every card size. Every fold. Drawn out in a notebook with a pencil and a ruler before a single file went to print.

The pink head silhouette on the box, the one with the well opening into the mind, was sketched, redrawn, and refined a dozen times before becoming the mark of the deck.

This isn't a product designed by committee. It's a product designed by one person, during a moment in their life, for people they hadn't met yet.

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How It's Played

More ritual than game.

The deck comes with rules, but they're written more like instructions for a ceremony than a party game.

01

Set an Intention

Before beginning, each player names what they hope to discover or explore through the game. A quiet moment, before the words begin.

02

Clear the Energy

Tap the deck three times before each round. A symbolic gesture, to clear what came before and make space for what wants to be said.

03

Draw Intuitively

Choose the card that calls to you, not the one at the top of the deck. The question you're meant to answer is rarely the one you'd choose with your mind.

04

Listen Actively

When another speaks, listen without preparing your reply. Be where they are. The conversation is happening, not waiting.

05

Ask Again

Follow-up questions are where the depth lives. The first answer is the surface. The second is closer. The third is usually where the soul speaks.